| True.
Come here and hear my words,
That describe this world.
The travesty, the happiness,
All around you, and me.
The baby grew up as the rest,
Until signs showed they were wrong.
He watched himself,
As he was different.
No one knew,
Except for him.
Yet, physical signs grew,
But a different fault.
Never heard his voice aloud,
When he was in the corner.
Looked around him,
No one beside him.
Deprived of originality,
Just a simple kid.
Fought for his right,
Lost in his fright.
Tried to so hard to be,
As equal as you too.
This kid has a dream,
It was to be so great.
But he’s lying,
So far away.
Young kids grew to him,
When he needed them.
Yet, as he walked away,
He was all alone again.
Always ridiculed,
Always made a fool.
Never cried once,
But died deep inside.
As he grew so high,
He decayed to defy.
Distant times of a hurtful past,
Come to haunt him to the last.
It was time to walk by and far,
To a place unknown to such a mind.
Where the future could lay,
Beautiful dreams to life.
Or where deathbeds,
Meet their maker.
It was time to say goodbye,
It was time to sway away.
Troubled ideas rang through and through,
Seemingly confused-nothing to do.
Watched as he understood the concept,
Lied as he enjoyed every second.
Years rang through the alter,
As the kids ran by.
Accept the idea of a different life,
When everyone is against you.
What could he do,
This is who he is.
Denial under the heat of the sun,
Burned his mind to ashes.
He held onto all he could,
Until his mind made a end.
He knew what he was now,
It was different to our creator’s eyes.
It was to be kept a secret,
Until he was ready.
Would it be the end of him,
Or a better beginning?
A new age to a curious eye,
Disturbed stories to the fearful sound.
The chill that haunts the north,
Crept through his warm bed.
The day was dawning nearer,
So close it was already there.
Such a drastic area,
With no knowledge.
Happiness to cloud the future,
Or a dreadful fog to dread.
Back in the middle of his dream,
Creation, lead him to what to be.
Worked so hard to buy a smile,
That embraces his every thought.
He succeeded,
At what cost?
He was not alone like always,
Yet he was never accompanied.
His confused mind never lost track,
The desire burned so deep inside.
A person that he always cared for,
But the boat has sailed, gone away.
Where was his place in here,
A transcript for this tale?
Too different for a persons mind,
So insignificant.
As long as the letters were close,
To the beginning, he was in bliss.
Or so he thought,
Until change happened.
Let a new age occur once again,
Fame or fortune will bring his end.
Time, tells the tale of a mans life,
What a tragic story this child writes.
Such a bright future he once held,
Until a letter was sent out.
Out, the basis to the tragic end,
Where life would end its bliss.
The horror of a few words,
That cut through his heart.
He cried so much for his reason,
That he was who he is.
Select few to hold onto his pain,
Accepted the difference of him.
Ignorance reached the creators,
Forced to a temptation against him.
When all that was fed to him,
Brought his mind into a shadow.
Everything was taken from his light,
When light was a dream for now.
He couldn’t see his heart anymore,
He couldn’t hold onto anything.
When criticism chained him down,
He had nowhere to go, imprisoned.
The most fearsome part of a child’s life,
That brought him to his knees with tears.
He found a solution that would last,
For a measly short amount of time.
The blood shed more tears as it,
Flowed down his cheeks.
The silver prism that he held,
Cured the pain, for some time.
No path that would go back,
When everything was great.
A decision that can’t be chosen,
Haunts him ‘til this very day.
A savior to his internal tears,
Believed against his creators will.
Lockdown from the beauty outside,
From the window he never had.
When everything was lost,
Of his inexistence.
He wished every night,
As he cried everyday.
For a tomorrow with no tears,
Where he could live with a smile.
Was it a lost cause for this,
Or a tale yet untold.
As the new age will rise,
Will he do the same?
A new image amongst his untold past,
To be free to his eyes and not to others.
He walked around with the thought,
Everyone was against him.
Until he met those,
Who freed him.
He wasn’t alone anymore,
He had someone to go to.
Could others look the same to him,
Without a grin to disagree?
Still lost in the halls,
Of his future.
Yet as high as the letters were before,
Sunk deeper as his heart has gone.
The black shadow that haunted before,
Now covered his soul to the grave.
His thoughts for that certain "love,"
Bled his tears as fierce as his strength.
His mind raced as he walked faster,
Yet he ran right back to the ground.
What did he do to deserve this,
He lived as one could be.
The energy that could lift a soul,
Now deteriorated into his dust.
Where had this taken him,
He was lost in this abyss.
It was so dark he couldn’t not see,
Except those tears of everyday.
He walked to a place,
Where he died.
How words could treat him so bad,
How "love" disappeared so fast.
Witnesses to his terrifying tale,
Made his knees fall to the ground.
What was wrong with him now,
Why does this keep happening.
Could it be true,
Is this pill real?
The cure to a disease,
"We had no choice."
Yet the new age,
Was half-done.
Recognized something never happened,
He was happy for so long.
So blind to realize his mistreatment,
How much he was ridiculed by his "love."
He gave up everything for this cause,
Thought it was the best thing ever.
He was wrong once again,
When it was right to be wrong.
He signed the paper,
He ended the pain.
Pass on as time does,
Until more heartbreak would kill him.
Haste on the feelings today,
Slow to the reality.
Such a terrible occurrence,
That raped him internally.
To a literal instance,
Where it was serious.
A night of bitter cold,
Ended his bitter soul.
His soul grew as time did,
‘til his pain burst so quickly.
The letters of the good,
Replaced by the bad.
When will the light,
Shine through again.
When he’s down on his knees,
Praying for his Eden.
So much was gained,
During this time of pain.
As the time ticked further,
He fought further.
His time of end,
Was not near.
As more as he hoped for it,
It was a tale to be never told.
The era has reached its end,
Until the next one to kill,
Walk alone once again.
Another break alone,
Or so he thought.
Text that brought something new,
A different and better feeling.
He ran for the chance,
He needed the change.
He cared so much for this one,
He would not want it to end.
This point he was not alone,
There was someone to help.
The locked cage once lived,
Found a crack to leave.
He was so happy for once,
Seemed the stars gazed upon him.
Yet, he was shot so deep,
He bled without indication.
The "love" once there,
Decayed to nothing.
Anger arose at the disposition,
To ask the readers confusion.
All that was once held deep inside,
Broke apart into his stardust.
The new age would occur once again,
Would he relive his painful past?
A tear occurred so early to count,
How could this be, so early in time.
The dramatic end, has not begun,
But the drama has once been reborn.
How could tears be a disease,
That was deprived from everyone.
His eyes burn every day and night,
When all he sheds are his tears.
The darkness has leaped so high,
He cannot see himself anymore.
His home that bore him,
Now destroyed him.
A structured ground that once held,
The smile inside that is that is lost in him.
Not one day could he live,
Without a tear in his eye.
He was dying,
so painfully.
He came to a conclusion to end,
The bitter pain of this blend.
He asked those who deepened his pain,
They turned him down said he was insane.
When could this child grow to a smile,
As laughter is over in the tears of October.
He believed in another cure,
But not one easily acquirable.
In his mind it seemed destined,
He pondered every night.
He saw as his letter grade would fall,
But, he had lost the urge to work, but why?
As he walked by, many had a reason,
That he was useless and ignorant.
He had thoughts of the past,
To burst the blood from his arms.
He knew that it was just wrong,
There was no outcome to it.
As he looked at himself in the mirror though,
He realized he saw himself, but others too.
They were the ones behind him the whole time,
As some who were close had faded away.
He did not smile or make a frown,
He nodded, because it was over.
As such little things that run through him,
Is worth a bit of his heart now.
He gave up the treasure of freedom,
Confined to a single basis.
His feelings were all he had,
Deep inside where nothing lay.
As he would walk to the place from his death,
The light embraced him on the darkest night.
Where most good thoughts rang,
That shook his body to peace.
Yet, as he stepped back in,
The pitch black was back.
There was only time to pray,
Until then he would wait.
As he wonder at how long it will be,
When he is happy once again.
His confusion of those around him,
To special ones that have a special place.
He does not know what to do with it,
When the one he likes isn’t there.
He misses his gentle and caring embraces,
But could his tireless words haunt him?
His mind was shrouded by the looks of him,
The words that became his sin.
He wish he could try,
To reach the sky.
But the imbalance,
Denies access.
He sat down on the ledge,
Thinking of them, his loved ones.
When they saw him so sad,
They embraced so gently.
This child’s mind is lost,
In the darkness.
He grew so fast during his time,
He ran away from those lies of his mother.
When the closest thing in life,
Was his regrettable death wish.
A feeling so strong like none other,
To lie until ‘til disintegrates.
Wishing for that moment again,
Still wondering when it will end.
The tale of a young boys journey,
Through the hardships of a thousand terrors.
He has grown against their will to someone better,
As time will tell of the future of this tale.
If you can't figure out what that poem is about, its about me, and written by me. My life as a child, to the time of now, it isnt complete, for im not dead. If you take the time to read it and comment, thank you.
There are "Untold" Parts to the whole Poem, so I will post them when I am complete with them.
As for life as of right now, it sucks, im really depressed and its worsening everyday. It feels like im just dying, slowly, coldly.
Love you all. <3 |
